I waited until finishing book 3 to write a review. In truth, I had a very difficult time finishing book 1. There were easily a half dozen times I nearly returned the book (I read them KU before buying them) because I was so disgusted with the way the MC Harrison was abused in this book. I still find it very unsettling, but I persevered through the to 3, and I now can’t get the damned books out of my head.
First, let me say that I found the stories exceptionally well written. The characters came to life in ways many authors fail to accomplish. To me, at least, they each became very real and I attached an emotional bond, both positive and negative, to each. Even the minor characters.
I have to take exception to the author’s description of this being a polyamorous relationship, however. I have been acquainted with people in polyamorous relationships going back to the late 60’s. Not many, but some. This story, through book 3, isn’t remotely polyamorous. At its base, it is a cuckold story with some seriously emotionally disturbed personalities. Especially Harrison and Kay.
I took a strong liking to the MC Harrison, though much of his behavior makes me want to vomit. He’s a terrific kid, thoroughly likable, but emotionally stunted. The emotional abuse he receives at the hands of Taylor – and Kay – is appalling, and he is too immature and weak willed to break free of their hold on him. He rationalizes every single pain that comes his way from Taylor and Kay, each rationalization favoring Taylor and his unquestioned love for her. He can’t even bring himself to become angry at Taylor, or Kay, when their betrayals of his love, trust or friendship are laid before him. I truly despise what they are doing to this kid. He simply accepts it, though, with a very childish acceptance that he is making himself stronger by being “above” Taylor’s sadistic flaunting of her promiscuity. At the end of the day that’s just what is. Sadistic. If the author intended something other than sadism, she missed it by a country mile.
Taylor … deceitful, lying, selfish, self-centered, gutless, immoral, disloyal, lacking integrity, has no concept of loyalty to anyone but herself, and no understanding of love. She is also quite sadistic in the way she treats the one guy, Harrison, whom she claims to love with all her heart and soul. Through 3 books she is nothing more than a self-serving tramp. That’s her finest quality. There isn’t a single redeeming quality to this girl that I could find. She wants to spread her legs to any guy she chooses, and couldn’t care less what damage she causes, or who she destroys. Yeah, the author gives significant lip service trying to justify her behavior, but there is no excuse for what she is doing. None whatsoever. She’s not made a single promise to Harrison in this “open” relationship that she has kept, or intends to keep. Taylor is entitled. She deserves to have whatever she wants, and to hell with anyone else’s opinion to the contrary. An “open”, or even a polyamorous relationship requires everyone’s consent to have sex outside the defined relationship. Taylor is certainly taking every advantage of her opportunities, but freaks whenever she hears that Harrison may be leaning toward having an interest in someone other than herself. It isn’t fear Harrison will give his heart to another that’s causing Taylor to freak out – it’s the thought she’s losing complete control of Harrison. In her mind he will always be her property, always there to allow her to behave as she pleases. She doesn’t love Harrison, as she often states. She doesn’t know the meaning of the word. She simply wants what she wants, and she wants Harrison to always belong to her. Because he allows her to be the tramp she wants to be. She needs his permission, if only to justify to herself that her selfish promiscuity is OK. She has no interest in sharing Harrison, though, and never will. This is where the author's claim of polyamory falls apart. I seriously disliked Taylor at the end of book 1. That ridiculous plan she enacted, what she put Harrison through – the humiliation, the shame … all because she was too cowardly to simply break up with him. Yeah, let’s incinerate the kid’s heart and masculinity in front of friends and family simply because you don’t want to “hurt him” by breaking up with him. Yeah, let’s bang some testosterone driven a-holes in front of him so he will break up with Taylor, saving her the discomfort of telling him she’s moving on. Good plan, that. Pretty stupid, I thought. I actually began skipping all the sex scenes involving Taylor. Each one in book 3 just turned my stomach. By the end of book 3 I absolutely despised her. I hope she does go surfing. And I hope a shark eats her worthless ass. That would be some serious justice.
Kay – well, I kind of like Kay, even as emotionally disturbed as she is. She is pretty much duplicitous pond scum, though. She is quite clearly in love with Taylor and wants Taylor for herself, but she is also acting out an agenda of her own. Not certain what that entails yet. On one hand she encourages Taylor’s behavior because Taylor is a woman, and women should be free to do as they please, when they please, with whom they please. All’s right in Kay’s world when a female does exactly what she wants to do, and damn the consequences. On the flip side of her duplicity she presents herself as Harrison’s best friend, always there for him, always coaching him through his depressions to become “stronger than the situation”, even going so far as participating in mutual masturbation with him. In reality, she is not Harrison’s friend. She is Taylor’s tool, her spymaster reporting to Taylor every word, thought and deed of Harrison’s back to Taylor. Kay’s assignment from Taylor is to keep Harrison on a very short leash, and keep him away from other females. Unlike Harrison, Taylor will not share “the love of her life” … because she doesn’t want to. And Taylor gets what Taylor wants. Kay has some small feelings for Harrison every now and then, but never enough to protect her “friend” Harrison from Taylor’s debilitating and destructive emotional abuses. This is probably the saddest parts of the books for me. Harrison trusts Kay implicitly, even when he’s told emphatically (by Kay) that she does not have his best interests at heart. She is on Taylor’s side. He’s just too stupid and emotionally controlled by Taylor to see what’s going on right in front of him. Kay is absolutely the most cunning of all the characters in this book. It will be interesting to see how things play out for her. I keep hoping that things are finally going to click in Harrison’s little pea brain, that he’s going to get seriously angry and assert control of his life and pseudo friends. Yeah, probably not going to happen now that Kay has him in a tight embrace.
All in all, this is still NOT a polyamorous story. It is a cuckold story with a first class skank tramp in Taylor, an emotionally stunted simpering Harrison, and a screwed up “friend” in Kay. The author clearly doesn’t think much of males, which is fine, but I just can’t see any sort of happy ending in any form to this story. It’s certainly well written, though.
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